The allure increases.
Steady roar and wild wet.
Feral edge queen rides.
Note: This is today’s morning write in my edging journal. Perhaps it will give someone in WordPress land a little chuckle. 😉
I will pay you $10,000 to come fuck me senseless. I request, pretty please, one orgasm after another for …. hm, let’s say 10 hours. Anyone? Anyone?
Oh, wait, never mind. You live too far away and I don’t have $10,000 to spare.
What’s that you just asked me? Orgasm Denial? Edging? Me? Yes, I am doing the #juNO30day challenge of unrelenting orgasm denial and edging torture devised by the evil James.
Ok, James is not evil. He’s actually quite awesome. Or at least he will be on July 1st. 😛 (Hi James!)
That’s how my Monday is going, people. If y’all send me any pervy private messages again, I will eat you for a snack and feed the leftovers to my pet alligator, Jetson. Yes, that’s his name in made up alligator land and you really don’t want to take me on about this right now. Jetson is mighty hungry.
And, yes, I’m a freakish submissive obedient little good girl denial slut.
I love you, too.
Wow, I feel so much better!
Little rant completed. It’s safe to come out now.
(Heh heh heh. “Oh Jetson …”)
P.S. I think Day 12 is going rather well, don’t you? :PpPpP
Tumult of confused arousal
drives forward sensate magic.
The dervish of edging renders
my exquisite intelligence surrendered
to Your power.
Anything. Any task.
This electrical, mystical connection
to growing power and intuitive shimmers
of life. This is that.
The craving shivers to know more,
feel more, taste more, be more,
powered by surrender.
Had I only known sooner …
Art note: To distract myself from arousal (and to learn), I enjoy reading about the work of various artists, viewing their physical work in books, online, or in person on the rare occasions such opportunities occur. I also like to copy others’ work as a way to grow my own abilities and to understand what others produce. The above painting is a copy of one done by Rassouli, so I claim no originality other than my paint, rags and brushes produced an amateur attempt to copy one of his originals.
Freydoon Rassouli is magical and I aspire to one day possess even a scintilla of the mystical beauty he creates on canvas.
Day 6: obsession.
Edging is mind fuckery.
Haikus arouse me.
Favorite paragraph from Day 4’s journal write:
“This will sound ridiculous … but I wish the air could fuck me. 26 days to go. Oy to the vey.”
Wet, denied pussy.
Orgasm, you will not win.
Edging: Day 5 done.
(lamest haiku ever)
(what is expected from an edging woman?)
(will the haikus get worse than this over the next 25 days of edging?)
This is a small departure from the erotic writings of haiku and poems. But not a departure from the erotic.
I enjoy Tumblr from time to time and have (another) anonymous blog there with mostly images of things I find erotic and sexually luscious to look at.
In scrolling through my Tumblr feed a few days ago, I ran across a blog about female orgasm denial. Huge fantasy of mine that was allowed briefly a number of years ago. I had a princely Dom play partner who loved to torment me with orgasm denial as punishment. Being an excessively orgasmic woman, orgasm denial became a delicious torture. It was an amazing D/s relationship. He taught me a great deal, as well as being the catalyst for much healing.
To the point of this post.
I have entered into a 30-day orgasm denial process at female-orgasm-denial.tumblr.com (#juNo30days). Today is day 4 and today I also started a private online journal to write about the 30 days on this journey.
As I’ve become very adept at hands-free orgasms and energetic orgasms, this orgasm denial will be a feat of epic self-control and awareness!
What I’m looking for is a few Dominant men, (but a Dom female would be a fun adventure, too) who will be given access to my edging / orgasm denial journal. I am requesting you assign me tasks, if you wish, that increase the challenge of me edging (no orgasms allowed) for the remaining days of the challenge. The rules of the challenge I’ve agreed to are here. Suggested punishments for cumming (accidentally!) are here. I will be honest in my naughty private journal and will confess if I orgasm while edging or if I have any ruined orgasms while edging. (It is truly amazing that I have made it 4 whole days. FOUR DAYS!)
I have a life which includes work and client hours 5 days a week, so be mindful of that, please, if you wish to assign me tasks. I’m already edging 3 x a day as agreed upon with the challenge. Would you like to add to the mix? Make me edge more? (Ok, I’m not giving you any more ideas I may have to live with.)
What’s in it for you? You will have voyeuristic access to my private thoughts and experiences edging. I promise it will be honest and candid. I’ve been trying to think of something else to offer you in exchange for your valuable time and Dominant goodness and am (uncharacteristically) not having an inspired idea at the moment. Perhaps your voyeuristic viewing of my journal and the ability to enhance my edging with consequences if I orgasm is enough? Perhaps teasing me with erotic banter and maybe provocative images will delight you enough? Or make a suggestion.
Of course, journal entries will include reports on completion of any assigned tasks and what happened while doing tasks.
Please make your interest known in the comment section below, including how to contact you privately with my URL for my Tumblr edging / orgasm denial blog. If we have previously corresponded privately, you are also welcome to email me directly about your desire to Dom me during the edging challenge.
Please don’t leave me hanging! Or should I say please please please don’t leave me edging all on my own?! Respond, please. Yes, I’m begging. It only seems appropriate.