Category Archives: Orgasm

Edging Experiment – Want to Dom Me Through It?

This is a small departure from the erotic writings of haiku and poems. But not a departure from the erotic.

I enjoy Tumblr from time to time and have (another) anonymous blog there with mostly images of things I find erotic and sexually luscious to look at.

In scrolling through my Tumblr feed a few days ago, I ran across a blog about female orgasm denial. Huge fantasy of mine that was allowed briefly a number of years ago. I had a princely Dom play partner who loved to torment me with orgasm denial as punishment. Being an excessively orgasmic woman, orgasm denial became a delicious torture. It was an amazing D/s relationship. He taught me a great deal, as well as being the catalyst for much healing.

To the point of this post.

I have entered into a 30-day orgasm denial process at female-orgasm-denial.tumblr.com (#juNo30days). Today is day 4 and today I also started a private online journal to write about the 30 days on this journey.

As I’ve become very adept at hands-free orgasms and energetic orgasms, this orgasm denial will be a feat of epic self-control and awareness!

What I’m looking for is a few Dominant men, (but a Dom female would be a fun adventure, too) who will be given access to my edging / orgasm denial journal. I am requesting you assign me tasks, if you wish, that increase the challenge of me edging (no orgasms allowed) for the remaining days of the challenge. The rules of the challenge I’ve agreed to are here. Suggested punishments for cumming (accidentally!) are here. I will be honest in my naughty private journal and will confess if I orgasm while edging or if I have any ruined orgasms while edging. (It is truly amazing that I have made it 4 whole days. FOUR DAYS!)

I have a life which includes work and client hours 5 days a week, so be mindful of that, please, if you wish to assign me tasks. I’m already edging 3 x a day as agreed upon with the challenge. Would you like to add to the mix? Make me edge more? (Ok, I’m not giving you any more ideas I may have to live with.)

What’s in it for you? You will have voyeuristic access to my private thoughts and experiences edging. I promise it will be honest and candid. I’ve been trying to think of something else to offer you in exchange for your valuable time and Dominant goodness and am (uncharacteristically) not having an inspired idea at the moment. Perhaps your voyeuristic viewing of my journal and the ability to enhance my edging with consequences if I orgasm is enough? Perhaps teasing me with erotic banter and maybe provocative images will delight you enough? Or make a suggestion.

Of course, journal entries will include reports on completion of any assigned tasks and what happened while doing tasks.

Please make your interest known in the comment section below, including how to contact you privately with my URL for my Tumblr edging / orgasm denial blog. If we have previously corresponded privately, you are also welcome to email me directly about your desire to Dom me during the edging challenge.

Please don’t leave me hanging! Or should I say please please please don’t leave me edging all on my own?! Respond, please. Yes, I’m begging. It only seems appropriate.

Darkness Into Light

This may be appalling to some who read.  Somewhere in me, I’m appalled.

And its not the usual theme of my blog … but the title of this blog makes it clear I’m a Christian … and I have always deeply enjoyed that part of my life.  At least I did until the past two years.

I’m in the middle of a ‘prayer meeting’ in my own living room. Right now. (I’m always the one taking notes for our gathering … so typing now doesn’t actually seem weird to them.)  These are people I love and who I invited here.  We enjoy time together, pray together.  We enjoy being quiet to hear the ‘still small voice’ and ask the Creator, God, whatever you call your Divine source, for prophetic words to give one another.

But I cannot be my fully awakened self here in their midst.  I’m an orgasmic woman. I experienced an ‘awakening’ months ago and have spontaneous orgasms, erotic energy released in and through me.  I’ve always easily orgasmed but this is orgasm taken to a whole new level that occurs without sexual stimulation of any kind.  Full body orgasms. I love it.

So … I leave the room, go into my bathroom and quietly feel opened up wide sexually and energetically to the force of this energy, the force of erotic waves of pleasure and healing whooshing through.

How sad that a powerful, spiritual and erotic and energetic awakening cannot be shared openly simply because I’m in the midst of Christians.

Don’t get me wrong.  These are WONDERFUL people and I love them. But I don’t feel I can be myself fully with them, the person who I’ve become in the past few years.

I’m not possessed but that’s what they would believe.  And they would believe it sincerely and be concerned for me in a way they think would be loving.

There is so much more than we understand through traditional channels about energy, pleasure, healing and spiritual experiences.

Maybe one day it will change.

For now I will keep leaving rooms  where my ‘spiritual’ friends are engaged in ‘spiritual endeavors’ and not be my orgasmic self openly in their midst.  This doesn’t feel bad to me … but it is very, very sad.